christmas eve

the only thing i want tomarrow is to see ms.darling. it seemed like she had a bad night last night. iono it could be just me thinking too deep, which is usually the case, but iono somethign had me thinking she was having a bad night, i just wanted to give her a hug. darling and her friends called over here and we talked on the phone for a little, our convorsations are never exciting, but its cus i cant talk to her the way i could without boundaries. i want so bad jsut to be able to hold her and kiss her let her know how truly beautiful and amazing she is. she seemed pessimistic last night, i wanted to give her a million compliments, but she fell off to sleep before i could get a good convorsation started. i just miss her... i miss someone who ive met one time, and has made an impact on me like no other person has. she has made me fall completly head over heels. i will wait for her cus i know she truly deserves it, and nothing would make me happier than to be with her. i wish i could show you all pictures of her, but the whole point of calling her ms.darling is so she doesnt get in trouble with her boyfriend, because as much as i want to be with her, but it has to be the right way. god i just miss seeing her face, and giving her hugs, which is just an excuse to touch her. gah, but i cant think of anything alse to talk about, and i miss ms.darling too much to type about anything but pessimism.